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Monday, March 30, 2009
Sunday, February 22, 2009
What I'm feeling...
I'm feeling like in the next three months of my life some pretty significant changes are going to take place in me personally and in my lifestyle. I have no concrete reasoning on which I'm basing this feeling, but the words of Jesus have a reputation of shaking things up a bit, and since I'll be spending the next three months studying the Bible, I'm bracing myself for a good shakin'.
Lately I've been getting a lot of revelation about desperation. I was reading the story about the prostitute that washed Jesus' feet with her tears while He was eating at the house of the pharisee, and I could feel my heat start to ache with longing for a desperation for Jesus like that woman had... desperate enough to show up uninvited to the pharasee's house and weep at the feet of Jesus while everyone else looks on, I imagine, in judgment and embarrassment. I find myself to be too aware and logical to be that desperate... I'd probably at most wait outside the house until He came out as to not disturb the meal, and I wouldn't think to wash His feet with my tears because there's a possibility that that might make a scene and it's just weird and it looks weak. I WANT THAT KIND OF DESPERATION SO BADLY... an abandonment of self to such a degree that it leads to an almost scandalous desperation to even just be at the feet of Jesus. That sounds good to me.
Lately I've been getting a lot of revelation about desperation. I was reading the story about the prostitute that washed Jesus' feet with her tears while He was eating at the house of the pharisee, and I could feel my heat start to ache with longing for a desperation for Jesus like that woman had... desperate enough to show up uninvited to the pharasee's house and weep at the feet of Jesus while everyone else looks on, I imagine, in judgment and embarrassment. I find myself to be too aware and logical to be that desperate... I'd probably at most wait outside the house until He came out as to not disturb the meal, and I wouldn't think to wash His feet with my tears because there's a possibility that that might make a scene and it's just weird and it looks weak. I WANT THAT KIND OF DESPERATION SO BADLY... an abandonment of self to such a degree that it leads to an almost scandalous desperation to even just be at the feet of Jesus. That sounds good to me.
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
Some things I'm looking forward to...
1. Finishing painting the youth room (it's the never ending project)
2. the Daddy-Daughter Valentines Dance with my wonderful father and sister
3. going to Colorado for a week!
4. heading off to New Zealand for three months to study the Bible (I leave at the end of Feb)
5. BEING HOME ALL SUMMER!
2. the Daddy-Daughter Valentines Dance with my wonderful father and sister
3. going to Colorado for a week!
4. heading off to New Zealand for three months to study the Bible (I leave at the end of Feb)
5. BEING HOME ALL SUMMER!
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
WOAH!
If God is infinite, and infinitely creative, and infinitely deep, and unconditionally forgiving, and gracious beyond what we can possibly comprehend, and MADLY in love with us, and has deep secrets and mysteries that he longs for us to discover... I will never be bored ever again.
I'm beginning to think that Jesus has outgrown the pretty white robes that I've been dressing Him in, God has gotten a little bit to big for my box, and the Holy Spirit is done being a side dish.
Woah.
I'm beginning to think that Jesus has outgrown the pretty white robes that I've been dressing Him in, God has gotten a little bit to big for my box, and the Holy Spirit is done being a side dish.
Woah.
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
Back in Hawaii...
I have been back in Kona for three weeks and have been keeping pretty busy! I'm taking the school of marketing and research and also working with the DTS (discipleship training school). It's cool cuz I get to meet one-on-one with a couple girls and kinda mentor them through the DTS process, which is something that I'm realizing that I really like to do. I feel most alive and fulfilled when I'm pouring into other people, so the past three weeks have been awesome!
I'll be back in the ATX at Christmas time and will be there for a while (2 months-ish) and after that, I'm not sure... a million options, quite a few good ones, but it's just a matter of deciding what I want, which is proving to be a harder task than I anticipated... Maybe it's a commitment issue, or fear of being unhappy with my decision later, but I'm really trusting that soon I will be able to lay out a more concrete idea of what I my long-term goals are. Maybe when I grow up I'll figure it out... haha. No, but seriously, this week in class Patrick Dodson (patrickdodson.net) is teaching on identity and how you need to fully grasp who you are and what your passions are before you can speak into a world that has a gaping void in the place of purposeful living and misdirected passions. Then, when you grasp who you are, you will be able to create things with depth, cuz it comes from passions within you and things you really care about. It's already working!... Yesterday and today, my mind has been going CRAZY with ideas for now and the future!... I might explode... really. I'm expectant that this week God is going to help me recognize some dreams He's put in me that may give me a clue about what to do next.
I'll be back in the ATX at Christmas time and will be there for a while (2 months-ish) and after that, I'm not sure... a million options, quite a few good ones, but it's just a matter of deciding what I want, which is proving to be a harder task than I anticipated... Maybe it's a commitment issue, or fear of being unhappy with my decision later, but I'm really trusting that soon I will be able to lay out a more concrete idea of what I my long-term goals are. Maybe when I grow up I'll figure it out... haha. No, but seriously, this week in class Patrick Dodson (patrickdodson.net) is teaching on identity and how you need to fully grasp who you are and what your passions are before you can speak into a world that has a gaping void in the place of purposeful living and misdirected passions. Then, when you grasp who you are, you will be able to create things with depth, cuz it comes from passions within you and things you really care about. It's already working!... Yesterday and today, my mind has been going CRAZY with ideas for now and the future!... I might explode... really. I'm expectant that this week God is going to help me recognize some dreams He's put in me that may give me a clue about what to do next.
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